Dad's 44th Birthdayy

Hm, well I haven't posted in a few days because Blogger has been lame, every time I was thinking about updating it'd be down. Nothing really exciting happened anyways in the last few days so hah!

Thursday I did a parallel in front of my house with my dad's help.. I only did one though because it was starting to rain and I was getting wet with the window down and the ac wasn't really doing anything.. not sure if I'm working it right xD

I'm thinking about calling DMV on Monday to get my drivers test donee. CJ told me that you can't do it over the phone though, so I don't know.. I'll try anyways.

Tuesday I have a doctors appointment.. I need to start eating like a pig so I know for sure I gained weight.. ugh. I eat something whenever I feel hungry but I still don't think I'm gaining anything really.. even though my baby bump is big.

I just realized I have a lot of running around to do this week if they don't let me set up my drivers test thing over phone.. I'm running out of prenatal vitamins so I need to go to rite aid, I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday and I possibly need to go to DMV. Roar, and I probably will have to do it illegally by driving myself since Brad has mandatory overtime and most places close before he gets out.

Today is my dad's birthday.. have no idea what he's doing for it but he's not home currently. I wished him a happy birthday.. I don't think I got my mom anything for her birthday so I don't think I'm going to get him anything.. otherwise she'll get jealous thinking he's my favorite and junk... Maybe I'll buy something they'll both like and use it as a combined gift.. I don't know.

Today we went to walmart to pick up some things we needed. I got a bunch of clothes, some for me, some for Kailynn, and some for Alex. It was actually kinda fun to do some boy clothes shopping for Alex. <3 I'm kinda excited to have a boy. =]] It'll definitely be a whole new cute/interesting experience.

Today Devin went to a birthday party and came home with his face like beat red.. he got his face painted.. they must of tried washing it off before letting them go home, guess the red was harder to wash off. So I washed the rest off so we could go to walmart looking normal.. He had like a line on both sides of his face that looked like really bad scratches far away. I guess it was like a Fear Factor themed party too.. they had to put their hands in icky stuff blind folded. That's all I was told.

Brat

We just took Devin home to Brad's step dads, we stayed there for a little bit to chat and Brad noticed that Kailynn's name had something on it. (They have this quilted like family tree hanging on the wall in their dining room) Brad's step dad said that Devin was mad and scribbled her name off it with a pencil. >=o What a freaken brat. Can I just strangle him, please?

I Don't Enjoy Being a Step Mom

I know I don't like Devin. He's too much of a brat. I really really don't like him and I really don't care if he likes me anymore. =] I already told Brad I don't like him.

He's too mean to Kailynn and he treats me like crap. I really tried to like him but it's really hard to be a new step mom to a 6 year old (he's 8 now) who thinks he already knows everything. If he was younger I think it'd be easier for me to become more of a mommy figure but the people he loves were already in his life before I came along so he doesn't need me. I really really hope we don't ever get full custody of him. He already walks all over me pretty much.

He'll ask a question.. like earlier he asked if it's April Fools and me and Brad said no like at the same time but just because I said no he had to ask again but instead added Dad to the question. Dad, is it April Fools? Like way to just ignore my answer just because I said no too... and I blame it mostly on Brad. I don't ever get to make decisions because Brad is more worried about making Devin like him than anything else. Like last night you can tell Devin was lying through his teeth with everything he was saying. He was outside and he came in and we were wondering what he was doing and if anyone was outside for him to play with and he just kept changing his story so I knew he was just lying and I thought that he should just stay in for the rest of the night because it was already getting dark anyways. So I said no, he can stay inside and eat dinner but Brad pretty much ignored me and let him go back out. Pisses me off, I swear next time that happens and I know it will because it already has happened a few times I will make sure he doesn't go outside, I will fucking block the door so he can't go out so that maybe he will freaken take me serious.

Another Boring Day

Hmm, not sure what I should write about today...
We got Devin for the weekend, we usually get him every other weekend unless it's the weekend of either mine or Brad's birthday, then we'll get him two weekends in a row before the birthday weekend.

He lives with Brad's stepdad because Brad's real mom took custody of Devin when he was like 3 months old. Janelle (Devin's mom) had post partum depression at the time and Brad was in jail so neither of them could really take good care of him. Jenelle passed away when Devin was 3 in a car accident coming home from work. I'm not really sure what happened though I know I have asked a few times about it and I don't want to ask again. I just know that she was a back passenger and the car swerved and hit another vehicle and it hit her side, she was the only one that died. I'm pretty sure she was pronounced dead at the scene.

Brad's mom passed away almost 2 years ago because of stomach cancer. She had the cancer for awhile because she had the pain for awhile but doctors kept misdiagnosing her. When they finally found it they gave her 6 months to live if she did chemotherapy but chemotherapy ended up just making it worse and she died in 3 months. 3 months before Kailynn was born so that was really upsetting for me because I know she was excited to have a girl grandchild because she had two boys herself. While she was alive she made a bunch of quilts for Kailynn and I got them at my baby shower after she had already passed away... <3 That was definitely emotional for me, I almost cried but everyone was watching me open the presents and a lot of my friends didn't know who made them and that she passed away. =\\

Anyways reason I brought up Devin is because Brad got him today but he must of been at the farm that Brad's step dad's new girlfriend owns. Brad sent me a picture of the baby goat they have. They just recently had a baby goat and a baby cow born there which I think is kinda neat and I wanna see. I was kinda thinking about maybe asking them if I could adopt a little goat or something small but cute and should be pretty easy to take care of and keep it there but obviously I'd have to work and help pay for the food. It'd be neat and different and make life a little bit more interesting for me. I've always loved animals and I'd love to help out on their farm once I get a car. Brad's not really happy that Devin is turning into a little farm boy because Brad is kinda on the gangster side, wears south pole and 99% of the music he listens to is rap. He probably wouldn't really like me turning into a little farm girl either but whatever that's kinda my dream me.