Ouchhh

I'm beginning to think Alex doesn't really like me already. xD Ughh he keeps doing something on the right side of my tummy and it really hurtss. I can't even explain how it feels, it's just a kinda irritating pain. I keep poking him back hoping he'll stop doing whatever.. I guess it kinda feels like he is gnawing on the umbilical cord or something... lol.. or pulling on it like hes playing tug of war. >=\ I don't know.

Judgment Day

Is tomorrow supposedly. It's weird because I didn't hear anything about it until a few days ago..

I kissed Kailynn goodnight twice tonight just in case and because I found this cute quote.. I think it's kinda lame to credit someone for saying something so simple that anyone could of said but alas I will.

"Always kiss your children goodnight - even if they're already asleep."
H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

I think that's a cute thing to do.. and Kailynn and Alex will probably enjoy it..

I remember when my parents used to love me when I was little and used to give me kisses goodnight.. sigh and I loved it for awhile then I didn't want to anymore.. that was probably when things started to change. I find it so weird that I can remember something before my mom started abusing me and it just happens to be a good memory. =\\ There's a couple things I remember way back when I was little.. I'll write about those some other time..

Today I bought my parents their glass ball that I owed them because Kailynn broke it.. it's pretty and really shiny. I wonder if they noticed it or if Brad mentioned it to them while he was down there paying rent. I hope Brad didn't tell them.. I kinda want it to be a surprise and see how long it might take them to notice it on their own.. or if the kids see it. It doesn't matter.

Oh yeah speaking of parents.. my parents are going to the auction early tomorrow for the house next door.. I guess they are going to try for a few other houses if they can't get that one. They don't want to leave the auction empty handed. I really hope they can get the house next door. I guess it starts at 8 am, they already asked me to watch the kids for them.. hum de dummm.

Huge Update, Hooray.

Is it lame that I haven't yet posted about yesterday and I still don't feel like it? Ughh, I am being lazy I guess.
I'll start off by talking about today real quick since only one thing interesting really happened. Well I guess I could say a few things.
First thing which really made my day was this little raccoon guy that I found out on my porchhh. He was so cute. I wanted to pet him and keep his fluffy, cute little teddy bear ear self but I am obviously smart enough not to. He acted friendly but I'm afraid he would of been mean if there was nothing in between him, Kiki and myself. He probably would of torn my kitty to pieces. I don't even know if it was a boy.. just seems cuter to think so I guess. I will probably post the short video clip I recorded of him/her once I upload it to youtube. Once Kailynn falls asleep. Hmhmhm.
Also today my parents left around 3 to watch Alaynie run track.. I guess she came up 4th but she was against all the good people from all the other schools. She's been really good at it, she came up 1st on 200 meeter hurdles the other time she went. I'm thinking it was her last track meet today because they gathered all the best kids to compete against one another. But yes, I had to be outside and wait for Aiden's bus to arrive since they weren't home.. the bus kinda tricked me because I swear he usually goes up the street beside our house not on the street in front. I was outback and heard a horn and ran up front to see if it was the bus, sure enough it was and the driver was already out and about to knock on the door. -.- Lamer. But yes while I was outback I had Kailynn with me.. I put her on the trampoline all by herself... at first she walked/ran and figured out that it was bouncy so she did tiny little hops. I climbed on and did slight little hops sitting down.. I figured little bounces won't hurt the baby. I hope not. <> Lol she loved it. I wish I recorded it but I still can't find my camcorder.. I used the camcorder on my cybershot camera to record the raccoon. That's about it for today.
Yesterday I went to my doctor's appointment, found out I gained 10 pounds.. I weighed 140 exactly. It's funny because I made sure I ate a lot so I know I would gain weight and not lose again.. I didn't want to gain that much weight though.. <> ugh. They have a new weight thing though so who knows if the old one was more correct or just failed or if this one is giving me some extra pounds.. before they had one of them old fashioned ones that had little weight things you move around.. this one is digital.. the next time I think will be more accurate as a way to find how much weight I gained since it's the same machine. I did all the usual crap, my doctor asked me if I found out if it was a boy or girl.. told her it's a boy. She told me a lot of her patients are having boys. Hahar. She had a hard time finding his heartbeat for some reason.. took her a couple minutes.. she kept getting mine. I told her I knew he's still alive because right before I walked in he was moving around.. than he kicked her little tool thing and she found it. lool. She also told me that the ultrasound figured my due date was the 21st not the 19th.. but my doctor sticks with the original date since it's close anyways. So I'm glad to hear that since that means my baby is where he's supposed to be at pretty much. =]] (I always get scared I'm not giving him enough essential nutrients.) The ultrasound pretty much said the same thing for Kailynn. She was due for the the 14th of August but they figured the 16th and she was born on the 18th. 4 days late. After my appointment I looked for my cell in my purse and thought I lost it.. all the nice nurses were trying to help me find it.. then one got the bright idea to use the offices phone to call it and see if we could hear it.. we didn't. I was afraid it might of fell out onto the seat in the waiting room and someone took it.. So I ended up using their phone to call my dad. My dad was like "forgot to grab your phone?".. it was in his van and he heard it ring in there -.- loll. Glad I didn't lose it.
After my appointment and once we got done eating dinner Brad and I went out driving to practice, k turns and parallels. I did two parallels and one K turn. I'm pretty much pro at K turns now.. I just need more confidence for parallels. One parallel was with only one car and the other I went in between two cars.. I was so proud of myself for making it in.. and I did it downtown in medium traffic. =] There was a car behind me before I could do it so when I signaled.. they pulled around me. I always got nervous of that idea.. having someone behind me and not knowing what to do.. I don't really need to do anything but use my turning signal so they know what I am attempting to do and they can just go around me.
I realized a lame thing about my car though.. you can't see the trunk from the inside front seat because of the way it's built.. luckily I know it's really tiny. But you can't really see if your back end is close to the car behind you. Lameee.

Dad's 44th Birthdayy

Hm, well I haven't posted in a few days because Blogger has been lame, every time I was thinking about updating it'd be down. Nothing really exciting happened anyways in the last few days so hah!

Thursday I did a parallel in front of my house with my dad's help.. I only did one though because it was starting to rain and I was getting wet with the window down and the ac wasn't really doing anything.. not sure if I'm working it right xD

I'm thinking about calling DMV on Monday to get my drivers test donee. CJ told me that you can't do it over the phone though, so I don't know.. I'll try anyways.

Tuesday I have a doctors appointment.. I need to start eating like a pig so I know for sure I gained weight.. ugh. I eat something whenever I feel hungry but I still don't think I'm gaining anything really.. even though my baby bump is big.

I just realized I have a lot of running around to do this week if they don't let me set up my drivers test thing over phone.. I'm running out of prenatal vitamins so I need to go to rite aid, I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday and I possibly need to go to DMV. Roar, and I probably will have to do it illegally by driving myself since Brad has mandatory overtime and most places close before he gets out.

Today is my dad's birthday.. have no idea what he's doing for it but he's not home currently. I wished him a happy birthday.. I don't think I got my mom anything for her birthday so I don't think I'm going to get him anything.. otherwise she'll get jealous thinking he's my favorite and junk... Maybe I'll buy something they'll both like and use it as a combined gift.. I don't know.

Today we went to walmart to pick up some things we needed. I got a bunch of clothes, some for me, some for Kailynn, and some for Alex. It was actually kinda fun to do some boy clothes shopping for Alex. <3 I'm kinda excited to have a boy. =]] It'll definitely be a whole new cute/interesting experience.

Today Devin went to a birthday party and came home with his face like beat red.. he got his face painted.. they must of tried washing it off before letting them go home, guess the red was harder to wash off. So I washed the rest off so we could go to walmart looking normal.. He had like a line on both sides of his face that looked like really bad scratches far away. I guess it was like a Fear Factor themed party too.. they had to put their hands in icky stuff blind folded. That's all I was told.

No Sister for Kailynn

So many things are going on in my life and I talk about it a lot to different people in person so I always forget what I have or have not mentioned here in my journal yet...

I don't think I wrote here that I'm having a little boy. I know I posted that we found out but because Jen wasn't online I couldn't say what it was.. But yes, the little baby that is doing flips in my tummy currently... is a little boy that we will be naming Alex. It's what Brad wants... I'm pretty sure he wanted that name for a boy before we even knew our daughter Kailynn was a girl. I personally think I could come up with a better name for a boy but I do like it and I rather not argue over names anymore... If it was a girl he wanted to name her either Jasmine or Arianna.. both of which I didn't like. I wanted Chloe. We argued a lot over the name for this baby if it was a girl AND when Kailynn was inside me.

I'm really glad we're having a boy but because this is probably our last child I feel bad that I couldn't give Kailynn a sister to grow up with like I got to.. to me it's important but it's nothing I can really control.. I could have 4 more kids trying to give her a sister and I end up getting her 4 more pain in the butt brothers instead.

I think another reason I really wanted her to have a sister is because I read a secret on postsecret that said something like "I wish my mother gave me a sister." It's haunted me since, I wish I never read that secret. What if that becomes Kailynn's secret one day? =[