I'm beginning to think Alex doesn't really like me already. xD Ughh he keeps doing something on the right side of my tummy and it really hurtss. I can't even explain how it feels, it's just a kinda irritating pain. I keep poking him back hoping he'll stop doing whatever.. I guess it kinda feels like he is gnawing on the umbilical cord or something... lol.. or pulling on it like hes playing tug of war. >=\ I don't know.
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Showing posts with label Baby. Show all posts
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
No Sister for Kailynn
So many things are going on in my life and I talk about it a lot to different people in person so I always forget what I have or have not mentioned here in my journal yet...
I don't think I wrote here that I'm having a little boy. I know I posted that we found out but because Jen wasn't online I couldn't say what it was.. But yes, the little baby that is doing flips in my tummy currently... is a little boy that we will be naming Alex. It's what Brad wants... I'm pretty sure he wanted that name for a boy before we even knew our daughter Kailynn was a girl. I personally think I could come up with a better name for a boy but I do like it and I rather not argue over names anymore... If it was a girl he wanted to name her either Jasmine or Arianna.. both of which I didn't like. I wanted Chloe. We argued a lot over the name for this baby if it was a girl AND when Kailynn was inside me.
I'm really glad we're having a boy but because this is probably our last child I feel bad that I couldn't give Kailynn a sister to grow up with like I got to.. to me it's important but it's nothing I can really control.. I could have 4 more kids trying to give her a sister and I end up getting her 4 more pain in the butt brothers instead.
I think another reason I really wanted her to have a sister is because I read a secret on postsecret that said something like "I wish my mother gave me a sister." It's haunted me since, I wish I never read that secret. What if that becomes Kailynn's secret one day? =[
I don't think I wrote here that I'm having a little boy. I know I posted that we found out but because Jen wasn't online I couldn't say what it was.. But yes, the little baby that is doing flips in my tummy currently... is a little boy that we will be naming Alex. It's what Brad wants... I'm pretty sure he wanted that name for a boy before we even knew our daughter Kailynn was a girl. I personally think I could come up with a better name for a boy but I do like it and I rather not argue over names anymore... If it was a girl he wanted to name her either Jasmine or Arianna.. both of which I didn't like. I wanted Chloe. We argued a lot over the name for this baby if it was a girl AND when Kailynn was inside me.
I'm really glad we're having a boy but because this is probably our last child I feel bad that I couldn't give Kailynn a sister to grow up with like I got to.. to me it's important but it's nothing I can really control.. I could have 4 more kids trying to give her a sister and I end up getting her 4 more pain in the butt brothers instead.
I think another reason I really wanted her to have a sister is because I read a secret on postsecret that said something like "I wish my mother gave me a sister." It's haunted me since, I wish I never read that secret. What if that becomes Kailynn's secret one day? =[
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Lying Gets You No Where
Blehhh, so mother has requested friendship with me todayyyyyyyy on Facebook.. at like the lamest time everrrrrrrrrr. If it was like a couple weeks from now maybe she wouldn't realize I lied. Oo I freaken never lie but because Brad didn't want my mom to be with us for the ultrasound and I didn't want to make it seem like that.. I lied. ughhhhhhhh. I also didn't want her to put two and two together and get Alyssa in trouble for babysitting and not tellinggg.
I told her it was today =\\ I figured she'd probably think since we got my car and junk that maybe we didn't get a moment to tell herrrrrrrrrrr. So now that I lied I have to delete like all of my baby crapness on FAcebook since I psoted it like 235098325 times when it was. I'm print screening them now =\\
lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I told her it was today =\\ I figured she'd probably think since we got my car and junk that maybe we didn't get a moment to tell herrrrrrrrrrr. So now that I lied I have to delete like all of my baby crapness on FAcebook since I psoted it like 235098325 times when it was. I'm print screening them now =\\
lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Found Out the Sex of the Baby!!
=]]] I'm excited and really want to tell everyone right now but I remember Jen saying she wants to be firsttttttttttttt. Bleh, and she is not onlinnnnnnnnnnnnne like she said she would be. Jen won't be first thoughhh, more like third since Brad was there and I told my sis since she was watching Kailynn for us. Since Jen isn't online she's probably going to be like the 23593523 since we have to pick up Devin and will probably tell him and Brad's stepdad. Maybe I'll try texting Adumb, not sure if I have the right number though... hm.
I can't even say much because I don't want to give it away in this posttttt. Ugh. We got a couple pictures from 3Dness!! That was a first, they didn't do that for Kailynn... but it was really neat and cute. Awrrrrrrrrr. We got more pictures of this baby than we did for Kailynn. Kailynn only got two pictures on the first ultrasound and one on the last ultrasound... and the only reason we got to have two ultrasounds was because my doctor wanted to check up on something. Hopefully maybe we get to see this baby again because hopefully she didn't measure everything she was supposed to... it seemed faster this time. She was super nice though, I liked her a lot, a lot more than the people before.
K I need to stop before I accidentally say it.
I can't even say much because I don't want to give it away in this posttttt. Ugh. We got a couple pictures from 3Dness!! That was a first, they didn't do that for Kailynn... but it was really neat and cute. Awrrrrrrrrr. We got more pictures of this baby than we did for Kailynn. Kailynn only got two pictures on the first ultrasound and one on the last ultrasound... and the only reason we got to have two ultrasounds was because my doctor wanted to check up on something. Hopefully maybe we get to see this baby again because hopefully she didn't measure everything she was supposed to... it seemed faster this time. She was super nice though, I liked her a lot, a lot more than the people before.
K I need to stop before I accidentally say it.
I am tired and Kailynn is napping and looks really comfy which makes me want to cuddle up and nap even more. We haven't gotten my car yet, because they are putting a new pump thing or something for power steering in it and I guess the pump arrived later than expected and they still have to go to DMV and get plates for it.
Right now Brad is getting his sporty car out of storageeeee.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Car, Baby, House
It's pretty nice out today. Didn't do much but clean, cooked Tacos and talk a bunch to parents.
Talked about cars, baby, house..
Dad really doesn't think I should get the car I want because of it being a gas hog and gas is getting pricey. I still want it =[ I feel so much better about driving around in the winter with it because it has a v8 and a lot of people said the car is good in the winter, like they drive by stuck cars easily. My dad doesn't think I'll ever be able to sell it if I don't want it anymore because everyone is going to steer away from v8 cars. People who want v8's are usually people who are looking for a truck to haul things. Bleh, I don't plan on selling it anywayssssss.
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Baby... everyone seems to think I'm having a baby boy.. Jen, Brad and mom thinks so.. We will find out in 3 more daysss!!! <3 I told mom that I'm hoping it's a girl so I don't have to worry about buying a million more things.... She offered me Acaylas old toddler bed but I rather get the same thing Kailynn has now.. which is like a 4 in one kinda thing.. crib that can be transformed into a toddler bed and a regular bed plus changing table can just be dresser. I rather let Kailynn grow up in her bed and be able to say she's had that bed all her life... like it's meant to be and get the baby another one that they can grow up into.. it'll save money in the long run, by not having to buy a million freaken beds.. still kinda pricey at the moment.
Mom wanted to see my belly but I wouldn't purposely show her.. Makes me feel awkward. Alaynie and Acayla were trying to get me to stand straight up and hold my arms up? to see my belly I guess and than Acayla says "Ashlynn has a pooch on her belly!!!" Kinda annoys me. Mom said "it's not a pooch.. it's the baby inside her." Blehhhhhhhhhhh, way to point out my fatnessssss. >=\
Then somehow we started talking about the house next door and me and Brad moving. I told them it's going to be hard for us to find a place since like 99% of the places don't allow pets and my mom was like we allow petsssssss. Hinting to move down there... I really don't want to but I'm thinking we might have to for now... I'm making Brad promise that it isnt going to be a permanent thing because I really don't want to live there forever. I really want new surroundings... I've lived there almost my whole lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee and I really don't like the layout of the apartment. Grrrrrr, makes me really sad thinking about moving back into there... been some bad memories =\\\ Like my head being smashed into the living room wall, my head being smashed against the ceramic bathroom tub, watching my sister being picked up by only her hair in the kitchen... having it done to myself and watching the world turn into a blur from being shaken. I remember having my head pounded into the wall one day and while she was doing it I was hoping it'd be the last time... hoping she'd do it hard enough to finally kill me. Sighhhhhh. It was pretty much hell living there most of my life. It's kinda funny how easy it is for tears to fall just thinking about it. They are falling now. =\\ I hate that me and Alyssa had to go through that. I wish I asked for help but I was too scared. I'm so surprised I survived that, so many times I wanted to commit suicide because I was tired of my mom beating me up.
Sighhh, I don't think I want to write anymore, goodnight.
Talked about cars, baby, house..
Dad really doesn't think I should get the car I want because of it being a gas hog and gas is getting pricey. I still want it =[ I feel so much better about driving around in the winter with it because it has a v8 and a lot of people said the car is good in the winter, like they drive by stuck cars easily. My dad doesn't think I'll ever be able to sell it if I don't want it anymore because everyone is going to steer away from v8 cars. People who want v8's are usually people who are looking for a truck to haul things. Bleh, I don't plan on selling it anywayssssss.
http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=1758945519851760103
Baby... everyone seems to think I'm having a baby boy.. Jen, Brad and mom thinks so.. We will find out in 3 more daysss!!! <3 I told mom that I'm hoping it's a girl so I don't have to worry about buying a million more things.... She offered me Acaylas old toddler bed but I rather get the same thing Kailynn has now.. which is like a 4 in one kinda thing.. crib that can be transformed into a toddler bed and a regular bed plus changing table can just be dresser. I rather let Kailynn grow up in her bed and be able to say she's had that bed all her life... like it's meant to be and get the baby another one that they can grow up into.. it'll save money in the long run, by not having to buy a million freaken beds.. still kinda pricey at the moment.
Mom wanted to see my belly but I wouldn't purposely show her.. Makes me feel awkward. Alaynie and Acayla were trying to get me to stand straight up and hold my arms up? to see my belly I guess and than Acayla says "Ashlynn has a pooch on her belly!!!" Kinda annoys me. Mom said "it's not a pooch.. it's the baby inside her." Blehhhhhhhhhhh, way to point out my fatnessssss. >=\
Then somehow we started talking about the house next door and me and Brad moving. I told them it's going to be hard for us to find a place since like 99% of the places don't allow pets and my mom was like we allow petsssssss. Hinting to move down there... I really don't want to but I'm thinking we might have to for now... I'm making Brad promise that it isnt going to be a permanent thing because I really don't want to live there forever. I really want new surroundings... I've lived there almost my whole lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee and I really don't like the layout of the apartment. Grrrrrr, makes me really sad thinking about moving back into there... been some bad memories =\\\ Like my head being smashed into the living room wall, my head being smashed against the ceramic bathroom tub, watching my sister being picked up by only her hair in the kitchen... having it done to myself and watching the world turn into a blur from being shaken. I remember having my head pounded into the wall one day and while she was doing it I was hoping it'd be the last time... hoping she'd do it hard enough to finally kill me. Sighhhhhh. It was pretty much hell living there most of my life. It's kinda funny how easy it is for tears to fall just thinking about it. They are falling now. =\\ I hate that me and Alyssa had to go through that. I wish I asked for help but I was too scared. I'm so surprised I survived that, so many times I wanted to commit suicide because I was tired of my mom beating me up.
Sighhh, I don't think I want to write anymore, goodnight.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Last Couple Days
I was going to update yesterday but it was already almost midnight and I hate posting around that time because of instead of saying today I have to say yesterday even though it like just turned a day. Blehhh.
Yesterday
So yesterday I had a doctors appointment.. I was pretty much cranky up until the appointment. I texted my dad asking him if he was going to be able to give me a ride... He asked me what time, I said that the appointment is at 3. Then he said that he could but it was going to be tight because he got out of work at 2:30 and that he can't be giving me rides whenever I need them... >=\ That annoyed me, this is like the second time I asked for a tiny favor this year... both being rides to appointments but it's April, that seems alright to me. Then he complained how Alyssa is always asking for rides to work, walmart, to their place and I guess now that Linda has a problem with her brain, David her boyfriend won't go to the store to get things they need so Linda has been asking for rides. Like wtf, way to bitch to me about it after I've only asked a couple times.. it's not my fault everyone else is asking for rides too. Maybe you should bitch to the people that are asking you for rides constantly. Excuse me for asking for anything. And than he was like not even making sense bringing Brad into the situation.. oh "Brad needs to figure out how to get you to the appointments when he cannot and not rely on me" (why can't I rely on my own father a couple times out of the year??) even though he's getting me a freaken car.. and my dad knows that.. It's like wtf else do you expect from him.. I think getting a car is a pretty good answer to the problem.. Grr!@$%)&#%&#%!@$!*@$
I already don't like asking for help, way to make me feel worse because I didn't want to walk in the rain with Kailynn.
I don't even dare to ask for any help with getting anything for this new baby or even the baby shower =[ I'm all alone.
So anyways the appointment was kinda interesting I guess. I peed (for some reason they make you pee in a cup every appointment), got weighed and found out I lost 1/2 - 1 pound (that really surprised me, I feel like I have gain 5 pounds not lost any, plus pants are already getting tight so I have no idea how that happened) My blood pressure is good. There's a new nurse lady working there, she seems nice. My doctor then asked me some questions like how I was feeling. Then I laid on the little bed/table kinda thing, she measured my tummy, pushed down on my tummy and noted that my uterus was pretty big, it's above my belly button now and she squirted gel on me and found the baby's heart beat pretty fast this time. She asked if there were any twins in either our families. She counted the heartbeats to make sure it was healthy or whatever. She thinks it's going to be a girl based on the heartbeats. Then she told me she was going to see if she could find another heartbeat just in case there were twins. Didn't find anything. That was pretty much it for the appointment except the nurse made me an appointment for my ultrasound.. she made it for the 28th of April but Brad just changed it to the 29th today because he was already thinking about taking that Friday off (to pickup my car at wherever we are getting it and his car out of the storage) and didn't want to take two days off from work that week. I'm really excited to find out what this baby isssssssssss.
We had a lightning storm late last night, I enjoyed that.
That was pretty much it for yesterday.
Today
nothing really worth noting.. except I am trying to find a girl name that I like and failing. I liked Riley until I realized it's Janelle's last name. Blehhhhhh. It's cold and rainy out.
Tomorrow we are going car shopping!!! Well just looking at cars and writing their information down because we are getting a car loan and the bank will only give you the money if they think the car is priced right. I'm excited for thatttttttttt. The end.
P.s. Jen I read your huge post. =]
Yesterday
So yesterday I had a doctors appointment.. I was pretty much cranky up until the appointment. I texted my dad asking him if he was going to be able to give me a ride... He asked me what time, I said that the appointment is at 3. Then he said that he could but it was going to be tight because he got out of work at 2:30 and that he can't be giving me rides whenever I need them... >=\ That annoyed me, this is like the second time I asked for a tiny favor this year... both being rides to appointments but it's April, that seems alright to me. Then he complained how Alyssa is always asking for rides to work, walmart, to their place and I guess now that Linda has a problem with her brain, David her boyfriend won't go to the store to get things they need so Linda has been asking for rides. Like wtf, way to bitch to me about it after I've only asked a couple times.. it's not my fault everyone else is asking for rides too. Maybe you should bitch to the people that are asking you for rides constantly. Excuse me for asking for anything. And than he was like not even making sense bringing Brad into the situation.. oh "Brad needs to figure out how to get you to the appointments when he cannot and not rely on me" (why can't I rely on my own father a couple times out of the year??) even though he's getting me a freaken car.. and my dad knows that.. It's like wtf else do you expect from him.. I think getting a car is a pretty good answer to the problem.. Grr!@$%)&#%&#%!@$!*@$
I already don't like asking for help, way to make me feel worse because I didn't want to walk in the rain with Kailynn.
I don't even dare to ask for any help with getting anything for this new baby or even the baby shower =[ I'm all alone.
So anyways the appointment was kinda interesting I guess. I peed (for some reason they make you pee in a cup every appointment), got weighed and found out I lost 1/2 - 1 pound (that really surprised me, I feel like I have gain 5 pounds not lost any, plus pants are already getting tight so I have no idea how that happened) My blood pressure is good. There's a new nurse lady working there, she seems nice. My doctor then asked me some questions like how I was feeling. Then I laid on the little bed/table kinda thing, she measured my tummy, pushed down on my tummy and noted that my uterus was pretty big, it's above my belly button now and she squirted gel on me and found the baby's heart beat pretty fast this time. She asked if there were any twins in either our families. She counted the heartbeats to make sure it was healthy or whatever. She thinks it's going to be a girl based on the heartbeats. Then she told me she was going to see if she could find another heartbeat just in case there were twins. Didn't find anything. That was pretty much it for the appointment except the nurse made me an appointment for my ultrasound.. she made it for the 28th of April but Brad just changed it to the 29th today because he was already thinking about taking that Friday off (to pickup my car at wherever we are getting it and his car out of the storage) and didn't want to take two days off from work that week. I'm really excited to find out what this baby isssssssssss.
We had a lightning storm late last night, I enjoyed that.
That was pretty much it for yesterday.
Today
nothing really worth noting.. except I am trying to find a girl name that I like and failing. I liked Riley until I realized it's Janelle's last name. Blehhhhhh. It's cold and rainy out.
Tomorrow we are going car shopping!!! Well just looking at cars and writing their information down because we are getting a car loan and the bank will only give you the money if they think the car is priced right. I'm excited for thatttttttttt. The end.
P.s. Jen I read your huge post. =]
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Stressed
My Aunt Pam wrote on Facebook: "Today I had the Gamma Knife and I'm really glad that's over with!! It wasn't as painful as I had been told....but wouldn't want to go though that again!! That you Jesus for answering all the prayers. You truly are a good God"
I'm really glad it went good for her, I've been thinking about her a lot. I even prayed a little when I woke up this morning. =\\
Kinda frustrated and stressed out at just about anything right now. =\\ I'm 18 weeks today, pretty much half way donee... I need a crib for the baby... if it's a boy a new carseat.. Now I wish I would of gotten a stroller/carseat set that was alright for both genders. If it's a boy, need clothes...
I really hope it's a girl, it will be so much easier since we still have everything of Kailynn's. I'd still buy the baby girl some new clothes but not as much as I did for Kailynn. Sighhhhhhhh, and Brad doesn't really seem to be worried about it like me or even thinking about helping getting anything we need for the baby... "I'm trying to get stuff that we need and I want to enjoy the summer!!" =| Yeah.. all his money is probably going towards his stupid car.
I'm already getting depressed about my new big belly =''[ I just want to be skinny and look young and pretty like I should be at my age. Brad's always watching these movies with gorgeous girls in their underwear or have sex scenes and it makes me feel worse. Makes me want to cry cause I'm just fat and gross with his child inside me.
Oh yeah I have my Doctor's appointment tomorrow. I'll probably find out when my sonogram is going to be.
I'm really glad it went good for her, I've been thinking about her a lot. I even prayed a little when I woke up this morning. =\\
Kinda frustrated and stressed out at just about anything right now. =\\ I'm 18 weeks today, pretty much half way donee... I need a crib for the baby... if it's a boy a new carseat.. Now I wish I would of gotten a stroller/carseat set that was alright for both genders. If it's a boy, need clothes...
I really hope it's a girl, it will be so much easier since we still have everything of Kailynn's. I'd still buy the baby girl some new clothes but not as much as I did for Kailynn. Sighhhhhhhh, and Brad doesn't really seem to be worried about it like me or even thinking about helping getting anything we need for the baby... "I'm trying to get stuff that we need and I want to enjoy the summer!!" =| Yeah.. all his money is probably going towards his stupid car.
I'm already getting depressed about my new big belly =''[ I just want to be skinny and look young and pretty like I should be at my age. Brad's always watching these movies with gorgeous girls in their underwear or have sex scenes and it makes me feel worse. Makes me want to cry cause I'm just fat and gross with his child inside me.
Oh yeah I have my Doctor's appointment tomorrow. I'll probably find out when my sonogram is going to be.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
First Baby Movements
I was just laying down seeing if I could feel my baby move around and I felt it move a whole bunch! How amazing, it took me forever to feel Kailynn but she's my first so I wasn't sure what it would feel like, I figured hard poking kicks. I can just feel a bunch of like sliding, wave like motions across my lower belly. I have to press down a little bit (not much at all, it has began to poke out) to get to my uterus cause it hasn't really poked out much yet. I'm still barely showing.
The feeling kinda makes me feel nauseous too. I'm already excited for this baby to come out!!
The feeling kinda makes me feel nauseous too. I'm already excited for this baby to come out!!
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