Month of Busyness

Like wholy poo I feel like I haven't sat down in forever. =\\
July 2nd Celebrated 4th of July with Brad's friends

July 4th Celebrated 4th of July with my family (including my aunt and cousins from Georgia) at Point Gratiot/ Lakewood for fireworks

July 6th Road test

July 8th Bonfire/smores with parents

July 9th Family reunion at Long Point State Park

Might be doing a photo shoot with Alyssa tomorrow..

July 11 & 12th I'll be doing my five hour again. Also have a doctors appointment on 12th.

July 23rd Brad's "brother's" wedding.

I'm exhausted..

Failed Road Test

='[[ I fail. How lame.. I should of just slowed down a bit, I was in a hurry I guess. I don't know. I got 40 points, to pass it can't be more than 30.. So I failed by 10 points.. =[[

Leaving Curb
- uses mirror only, fails to check blind spot 5 points
He said I did it really good and checked blind spot when I pulled out the first time but after that I just used my mirrors.. Gr.
So make sure I check blind spot when pulling out of parking spot.

Turning and Intersections
-Poor Judgement Approaching or at Intersections
Stopping 10 points
He said I didn't stop long enough to consider it a full stop at some of the stop signs..
So make sure I stay at the stop signs longer.

Parking, Backing & U-Turn
-Fails to Adequately Observe/ Use Caution 10 points
I think I got the 10 points here because I forgot to check blind spot before I did my K turn.
So make sure I check blind spot before I do K turn and maybe look behind me more, towards curb, not at the car when I'm doing parallel?
-Excessive Maneuvers in 3-point turn 5 points
Lame.. he had me do it near a drive way but he didn't want me to use the drive way so when I realised that if I tried doing it where he told me to do it I might go into drive way I tried going a little further down the road where there was no drive way.. he was mad that I didn't do it right there even though I did it perfectly. He was mean.. He was like I didn't want you to use the drive way but I wanted you to do it at drive way.. like wtf. >=\

Driving in Traffic
-When changing lanes fails to Observe 10 points
Really lame.. I didn't know I had to look in my mirror to check for drivers behind me when changing into a tiny little lane meant just for you to turn.. >=\ Like I would of obviously checked my mirror if it was an actual lane like in lakewood before trying to get on it but if it's just a tiny little thing I doubt anyone might go faster than me and cause any type of accident because I get on it too.
So make sure I look in my mirrors more often.. >=\

So Lameeeee, if I just stopped at the stop signs longer or just looked at my mirror when pulling into a turning lane I would of passed . Blehhhhhhh stupid little things cost so much points.. I wasn't even that nervous.. but he was a real jerk.. He didn't like me from the start when he found out I didn't have AC.

So looks like I'll be doing my 5 hour in frewsburg next week.. 11 & 12th.. (the same days my dad is having knee surgery) I am glad I didn't cancel my appointment after finding out I should be alright with my expired certificate. I figured I wouldn't just in case I didn't pass. If I did cancel it it'd probably take another couple months before I could do it. It's already probably going to be a couple months before I can take the test again. >=\ I tried setting up another road test already but I can't because I don't have my new 5 hour certificate number.

Road Test

Tomorrow is my road test, I'm really nervous =\\\ and it might rain which makes it a little more lame.. 30% chance. hmm.

I'm still only worried about the parallel. =\\ Ughhh. I really hope I pass!

I really want to post on facebook about my road test being tomorrow but I know I probably shouldn't just in case I fail I won't feel too bad about failing because not everyone will know about it and askk. =\\ I plan on going out for ice cream with my dad or something if I pass. =] I really hope it doesn't rain. Ughh, I just thought of that... it's not really fun to get an ice cream if it's not even nice out.. I was thinking about going to Tasty Corner.. Mmm cotton candy ice cream is my fave. Now I'm hungry. So bye.

Porn

Hummm, I am upset currently but it's my own fault.. I was in a really good mood until I decided to look up if I should be upset because my husband watches porn.. I've been trying to ignore my feelings about it because I figured it's a healthy thing all guys do... But a lot of people seem to think it's bad and I don't know what to do now.. He already knows I don't like it and I don't think he has watched any in a couple days unless he watches it on his new cell phone.. =\\ He probably does because he's always babying that thing.. it's always in his pocket and I'm figuring that he doesn't want me to see something on it.. =[ I know there's playboy apps.

The only reason I have a problem with it is because it seems to be effecting our love life. He doesn't know that I know his password to his laptop.. and I've been secretly getting on to see if he's watched any porn... (I know I am a bad wife ='[[) he usually does it right before work while I am sleeping and when he is smoking pot cause he knows I don't want to be near it while pregnant. I've tried stopping it by waking up the same time he wakes up and have sex with him.. he says that we should do that more often but it doesn't seem like he ejaculates or anything so he probably isn't really enjoying it. In a video I watched the guy says something like it's a lazy form of sex.. and I believe that could be a big reason to him watching porn.. Also in another video about porn crap the guy said that a guy can get accustomed to a certain rhythm and pressure while masturbating that he won't be able to get the same feeling from vaginal intercourse with a girl so he won't get the same pleasure.. plus guys are so involved with visual stimulation that they can't really perform intimacy.

Sigh, I don't know what to do.. I guess I just need to try to catch him in the process again and talk to him about it.. =\\ Hopefully he'll try to stop or I might just have to leave him because it's really unfair to me.

Weddingness

Ohhh summer, how I love thee. I barely spend anytime on the computer anymore because of the weather being nice.

Any time I do spend on the computer I usually spend on this new site I found.. called Pinterest. I love it because you can organize like anything online that you like into what they called boards.. Right now it's invite only, probably because it's new.. luckily the way I found it was through a random blog I found and the post was recent so I got to comment on it and ask for an invite. =]] But anywaysss, I like to browse through other people's boards and some people post wedding things. Which has been making me thinking a lot about how I want to have my wedding. I'm kinda thinking I might want to have the ceremony kinda thing outside behind Brad's stepdad's house, I don't know. I'm pretty sure I want my bridemaids to be wearing dark gray (I don't think I want the dresses to be as dark as the dress in the picture), all the guys wear black including Devin and Alex, Me and Kailynn are the only ones allowed to wear white. The bouquets will be made up of Anemones, like the picture hasss. Yes, it'll be cute.

Well that's about it, I am tired..

I am Still Sick

Blehh, go away coughhhhhh. It gets worse when I try to sleep for some reason, I try to not cough so I don't disturb Brad or wake Kailynn but then my eyes water.

I've been going outside with Kailynn a lot lately since the weather has been nice. She's becoming more and more easier to control outside.. I'm pretty sure she knows not to go in the road now.. yesterday she didn't try to go out in the road.. she was actually really good outside yesterday... she didn't stray away from my parents yard that often. I loved it.

Oh and my mother showed her how to pick flowers.. they were buttercups. So cute, she was amazed and she kept shoving them up mine and mom's nose so we'd smell them. lol. I kept one that she gave me.. my very first flower from Kailynn <3

She's also getting really smart. It amazes me sometimes.. she'll pick up random words really fast.. like when I brought her outside and we went out front and walked past my car she said "carrrrr!" without me even saying anything. Than she found these wooden white duck yard decorations and I told her they were ducks and she said ducks like a million times. It was cute. She also tries to say butterfly when she notices the light butterflys my mom has out.

Yesterday I practiced parallels in front of my house, using my dad's truck as the front vehicle. I'm almost confident with those.. I really think if I was to get any points deducted on my test it would be because of my parallel, if even that.. like I said I think I'm pretty good. I just hope they don't try to make me do it in a real cramped spot. I'm pretty sure I know everything else I am supposed to do.. so the road test people better be nice and let me take it and pass me. Alyssa practiced with my dad's van.. She didn't think she could do it with my "boat" even though the van is obviously larger than my car. She just feels more comfortable with the van because my dad lets her drive it sometimes.. She really wanted to do it with her car but my dad didn't feel like charging it up or something.

My parents did more work to the house next door.. they rototilled the front garden like area and stained the wood on the porch/deck. They also just found out that the bathroom has been invaded by carpenter ants, they knew something was in there because they could hear movement, they thought it might be mice or something but my dad cut a whole in the ceiling and a bunch of ants fell out. So they are now trying to figure out to kill the queen ant wherever she is because I guess you can't get rid of them unless you kill her. If you just try to kill the ants you see she'll just pop out even more baby ants to replace them..

Ouchhh

I'm beginning to think Alex doesn't really like me already. xD Ughh he keeps doing something on the right side of my tummy and it really hurtss. I can't even explain how it feels, it's just a kinda irritating pain. I keep poking him back hoping he'll stop doing whatever.. I guess it kinda feels like he is gnawing on the umbilical cord or something... lol.. or pulling on it like hes playing tug of war. >=\ I don't know.

Can't Stop Coughing

I've been kinda sick for the last few days.. my voice sounds funky and I cough a lot. Blehh.

I haven't really had anything interesting to say about my life lately because I haven't really done anything really interestingg. Humm.

This week went by really fast. I want to say a couple things that happened last weekend but I feel kinda dumb bringing it up like a week later. I will anyways because it was really fun and I'm thinking about posting picturess.

Well last weekend was memorial weekend, we went out to Cherry Creek to visit Brad's somewhat brother Brian.. (Brad's dad dated his mom) Oh and yay they (Brian and Cherilyn) are getting married next monthhhhhh and we are invited! =] I'm excited, I haven't been to a wedding since my parents. Back then I didn't really know what was going on but now I get to have an idea of what I am supposed to do for my own wedding.. like I really have no idea besides walking down the lane with my dad to Brad and repeat vows the dude says. Brad is kinda upset because Brian didn't ask him to be his best man and Brad's thinking about having him be his best man in our wedding. Anyways they weren't there.. and we waited for like an hour hoping they would come home but they didn't so we went back to Brad's step dad's place. (We dropped Devin off there because someone wanted to see him but they didn't even show up) We ended up staying there until it started storming.. we just had a fire started and it began to rain.

At like 4pm Brad's step dad's girlfriend invited me to go to visit her farm because she wanted to plant her tomatoes. We arrived at her place and she let me put her daughters rubber boots on because I was wearing my flip flops and her barn was really wet and pooey. She did like a little tour of her farm before we planted. I got to see all her animals... the only one I got to pet was a little goat named Marvin, he was extra friendly probably because he's a baby and Devin has been bottle feeding him. All their goats had horn issues, they tried to burn them off or something but they keep trying to grow back. The female cows and goats like surrounded us once we stopped moving because they thought they were going to get some treats or something, instead we just picked some of the grass off the ground and fed them. that was kinda neat. I kinda touched the head of one of the cows before it bolted away. It was the first time I was so close to cows with no beerier between me and the animal. I made sure I didn't get too close to them from the behind because I didn't want to get kicked or anything. All the animals pretty much free roam the farm (except in the fall season because I guess deer come out on the farm and the cows can get a disease), but they usually can go inside the barn whenever they want or go outside, the chickens and cats were allowed to go anywhere, the cows and goats obviously had a fence to keep them in one area. The mature male cows (there were three, a bull, and two others they plan on eating =[[ I can't remember the name for the bull but the other two were named DinDin and Quarter Pounder) were on the other side of the farm to keep them away from the baby cows and all the mature females.. the bull kept mooing because he wanted to pregnate the females again but they had just given birth so they need some time to recuperate. I really like her farm but I don't think I could ever do something like that myself. Just way too dirty.

We found like 5 eggs the chickens layed, since they free roam they pretty much lay them wherever there's a pile of hay. Some were in a wheel barrow and the others were in a corner of a stable. Her Rooster is freaken huge and he followed us around. I'm wondering if any of the things she planted are going to grow because after we got done some of her chickens like dug around them looking for worms to eat.

So yes, I took pictures of the animals and I'll probably post them up.